might too sweet to share

while i was listening to my ipod,
this song, i've not heard for long, started playing.

i don't know why, but it makes me almost cry, everytime.
that is, it's almost singing about us, you know

it says like this....

you see me at my weakest
but you take me as i am

i get mad so easy 
but you give me room to breathe

you pick me up and brush me off
you tell me i'm okay

all my troubles, all my fears
dissolve in your affection

you offer me a softer place to land...

(sarah mclachlan)



i say, i was thinking these days or years, several times
why we met and are now here
how should we go along
did something make me change or
am i just looking for something that i can never get
sometimes i think over and over, maybe too much

but it reminds me how much i owe you,
i've so much to thank you

and it's the day before your birthday.
is it just a coincidence? 

hope you get along with me a bit longer
thanking you...

happy birthday





ipodを流していて、偶然
ひさしぶりに聴いたのだけど
この曲を聞くといつも
なぜかこみあげてきてしまう
あまりに自分のことのようで




本当をいうと、ここのところ自信がもてないこともしばしば
それはあまりにつきつめて考えてしまうからかもしれないけれど
なぜこの出会いがあって、ここまできたのか
これから先も　こうやって歩んでゆくのか...


けれどこの曲を聴くと
感謝せずにはいられない
どれほど違いがあろうとも
やはり私を支えてくれているのだから


そして明日はあなたの誕生日
そうだった、これは本当に偶然だろうか

いつも使ってすりきれてしまったからと
今年も頼まれた　ごわごわした革手袋だけでなくて
ちゃんとプレゼントを用意しておいてよかった

まよいながらも、やっぱりもうしばらくは
こうしてあるいてゆくのだろう

いつも辛抱づよく
エラそうで、わがままで
マイペースなわたしに　
寄りそってくれて　
ありがとう

last harvest

pity...     that last sunday
i made up my mind to
pick all the green ones
of petite tomato. 
I had to, to prepare the soil
for the next spring vegetable.
even the tiny flowers still on there.

it's late autumn,
there're cold days and 
warm golden beautiful days.
but next day it was strange:

cold like it waited me picking up tomatoes,
and cloudy grey day with sunlight at times
sudden short shower
then cold wind wiped the clouds away,
bright clouds,
became colder

that made us believe
winter almost came here..


at night the moon was brightly white and 
the sky was deep dark blue 
made a good contrast with the dark but bright grey clouds
at the end of the sky, wiped
reflecting the moonlight.





伸びきったミニトマトの藪
冬にも実がなるというので
そのままにしていたけれど
春の野菜の種も撒きたいから
思い切って整理する。
小さな青い実に黄色い花も
未練はあるけど
隅のひと株のこして全て摘みとった。


次の日　それを待ってたように寒くなった。
灰色の　。ときどき日がさしたかと思うと
突然ざっと降り、今度は冷たい風が雲を吹き払ってゆく。
きらめく雲
そしてさらに冷え込んだ。

冬はもうすぐそこ


夜　月はこうこうと白くかがやき
暗い蒼い空はひろい
グレーの雲は暗いのに明るい
はじっこに吹き寄せられて

autumn sunset

sun setting so fast these days

i realized that

finding squared light and lacy shadow

in the shade of the wall,

trying taking a few photos

and they went away so soon...

秋の日は　つるべ落とし

ほんのつかの間
なん枚か撮ったら消えてた

fragrant olive

fallen tiny orange flowers of fragrant olive.

a gift of a rainy day.. 
that i wished i could keep the sweet scent longer
for i've enjoyed it only for the last few days of september.



雨の日に窓をあけ　あ、と気がついて
肌寒いのにそのまま　窓辺にただよう香りにうっとりした
ほんの数日で　もう散りはじめてる
この香りを　どうやってとじこめておこう





now i realize, i was away from this place
for more than two months.
i think i was a bit busy preparing my fuyukusa project.
meeting, practicing knitting, making small booklet...

so from now on, i will catch up with my own days
putting a bit old photographs of summer and early autumn..
wish you will enjoy.




here's my room      ...in shade
but in my favorite colors